You know when someone tells you something that is totally shocking and it takes you off guard? Then you respond with something completely assinine that a) is pretty much the worst thing you could possibly have said and b) not at all what you really meant to say? Yours truly pulled one of those today. The shitty part is that I have no way to redeem myself at this point. And i am supposed to be trained in talking people through crisis and suicide, note to all out there…you probably DON'T want me around in a time of crisis. here's another thing, it REALLY hurts to lose someone who is important to you…and i don't think it goes away for a long time, even when you think it has, it comes back at the worst possible times.