The baby update for the Motylinski Clan:

Congrats to Drew and Michelle!  We got the call on Sunday morning that Avery William Motylinski had finally decided it was time to show his shining face.  Jay and I headed out to the hospital later that day to visit.  I was one of those people who thought that ALL babies looked the same.  Until yesterday.  One look at his face and i could see Motylinski written all over it.  I can only hope for such a perfectly beautiful baby! 

When we got there I could barely contain my excitment.  And i didn't even make him cry when i held him which is a HUGE plus for my confidence when it comes to babies.  The babies i have held in my life i could count on 1 hand…i would imagine its been about 2 before Avery.  Things went well for both Jay and I though.  Next step…Michelle has to show us how to change diapers.

 Up until yesterday I had my heart set on having a little girl.  Of course, i know i would be happy with any baby, but i couldn't get pictures of cute little sundresses, hats, pink bows all that girly stuff out of my head.  Plus, the chance of getting a little girl to ride horses is about 1000 times more likely then getting a little boy to ride.  I was to the point where i was actually feeling GUILTY about wanting a little girl so much, and i was fearing that i would be disappointed if we didn't have a girl. I was living in fear of finding out the sex of the baby.

Then i held Avery, and something changed…now, i don't think i could care less if its a boy or a girl, I am just excited.  In fact, if i am leaning one way or the other, its towards a boy, for the simple fact that Avery and our baby will be so close in age.  But either way, this weekend has definatley made this whole pregnancy thing more real.  After we got home last night i wanted to do nothing but shop for baby things, read baby books, organize our nursery, anything baby related.  The problem with that is, that we have been so excited this entire time that the nursery is pretty much done, we are as organized as we can be so far, I have read just about every book I own.  Everyone we know has given us so much crap about buying everything and leaving nothing for "gifts" that i sat down a couple weeks ago and made a list of things we don't have, and i am having to try VERY hard not to run out and buy the stuff on the list myself. 

 Today is the big day for Jason and I…we have our 20 week ultrasound.  Today we will have a finalized due date (since our first visit, the date has ranged From October 27th to November 5th)  and we will HOPEFULLY be able to find out of its a boy or a girl.  Up until now we have been holding off on buying many clothes, toys, blankets, picking out names all that fun stuff until we know what to focus on.  If this baby is anything like me though, it will have its back stubbornly turned to us or refuse to uncross its' legs and we won't know.  But i am not entirely sure that would be such a big deal to me anymore.

 I have been feeling kicks and pokes and prods for about 2 weeks now.  Nothing huge, but sometimes enough to wake me up.  Everyone has been saying that it starts out like a fluttering in your stomach….i must have missed that stage, because the first time i felt the baby was when Jason and i were poking my stomach (our favorite past time now) and in response i got three solid kicks right around my belly button.  I guess that was a message directly from M2 to his parents- KNOCK…kick… IT…kick… OFF…kick!  Coming from a kid who gave us the finger in our first ultra sound, i wouldn't expect anything less.  Jason and I have discussed many things over the past 5 months about raising children, if there is one thing we agree on, its that we are going raise the craziest, strangest kid on the block.  We both have high hopes that he will wear a cape and goggles.  I am sure i will have more news tomorrow!